Thursday, September 10, 2009

Honestly

I am an optimist. I look for the good in every day. I strive for positivity.

Lately, I have struggled to stay optimistic, see the good, and stay positive.

So, I haven't blogged.

My blog is supposed to be a happy place, a positive space. Why infect it with my struggle? Why subject all of you to my darker places?

I believe there is good in everything, that is why. Maybe if I am honest with myself and with all of you, something good will come out of it.

Honestly?

I am three classes and a thesis away from earning my bachelor's degree. I don't know if I want to continue.

After a year in therapy, I stopped going at the beginning of August. I now realize I need it even if it feels like I am going nowhere or wandering in circles some of the time.

I am unsure about everything these days. At least a few tears fall every day.

Still, the optimist in me still gets me up and out of bed every morning with a "Keep trying and it will get better."

Honestly.

2 comments:

  1. I am struggling myself a bit lately, and it keeps me away from my blogs too. *hugs* You'll work it out.

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  2. Dearest, This time of year brings about a lot of uneasiness. Change is in the air. I was having difficulty with life too, but Im hoping for the calm at the END of the storm soon. Have you been able to write in journal or in some other means during these troubled times? It's ok to be uncertain, to have dark days, but come out of the cave a little and you will see a fleet of people willing to greet you with open arms and walk beside you in your journey, and even hold your hand when necessary.

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