Monday, December 29, 2008

1:50 a.m. Thoughts

It is 1:50 a.m. and I can't sleep. Insomnia, a blessing or a curse? I'm not sure, but it visits me on occasion and if I charted it, it probably happens at least once every three months. This night/morning, thanks to insomnia I have discovered Shutter Sisters, visited twitter peeps nests, begun experimenting with watercolor pencils in my newly created art journal, got to wondering about a certain poet/artist I only sort of know and would like to know better, and began reading through this awesome cookbook. Maybe if I did not do things to energize my brain when I have insomnia, I would be better able to sleep, but laying in bed wide awake for 40 minutes is more than enough for me... I would rather be productive.

I have a feeling I am going to read this post some time much later today and quite possibly regret posting my ramblings.

Wii Fit is remarkable. When I asked for it for Christmas I wasn't sure if it would work or if I would stick with it, but I knew it was quite nippy here in New England and I no longer had the motivation to go next door and shoot hoops in the park. I also knew that if I joined a gym I would find every excuse not to go. So, I asked for Wii Fit and it was under the Christmas Tree. I have been using it for the past two days and have the compulsive urge to use it right now, but my husband who does not have insomnia would most likely not appreciate my running in place on our wood floors. Wii Fit is FUN! So fun that I have worked out for more than an hour each day. There are Yoga, Strength Training, Aerobic Exercises, and Balance Exercises. As you improve, you unlock additional exercises in each category. Sun salutations, alternating push-ups and side planks, Hula Hooping, tightrope walking all in my own living room! And it WORKS, just ask my abs, thighs, glutes, and upper arms. Still, in all of my soreness, I can't wait to hop on the balance board for the third day in a row and practice my warrior pose, rowing squats, advanced step-aerobics, and ski jumping. Who knew working out, trying to shed 25-30 pounds, could be so entertaining?

Digital Camera. I have woefully been without one for three days short of a year. We have received our refund, but it will not be put towards a camera. Why? Santa took care of that, too! I have been snapping away, but have not yet learned how to transfer photos from the camera to the computer. Easy Schemeasy I have no doubt, but still I must learn. Hopefully Mr. B&B will help me out when he wakes up today and I can get some holiday and other photos posted. Being without a camera for a year was difficult, but looking back there were positives as well. Instead of capturing the moments on film, I was able to be in the moment and capture the little moments in my heart. This year brought perspective into my life and taught me that as a photographer you need to not only capture moments on film, but in your heart and that you have to have heart to capture those moments on film. Can't wait to delve back in to photography and share that journey with all of you.

Pillow. In my 27 years, I have never had a brand new pillow. Instead, I inherited pillows from others. Like other families pass down hand-me-down clothing, our family passed down hand-me-down pillows. On Christmas morning, for the first time in my life, I received a brand new, still in the packaging, crisp white pillow. It is so comfortable and smells fresh and is already melding perfectly to my neck and head. It is the little things that bring joy, I'm telling you... Still, I have insomnia and am not sleeping on my pillow, but hugging it to my chest while I type. Odd.

Do you ever find yourself thinking and wondering about someone you didn't realize was on your mind? I do. Right now that person is a poet/artist I know, but don't really know and would like to know better. We've crossed paths on a few occasions and every time I have been blown away by this person's kindness, creative capabilities and ability to completely capture my attention in every way. This person is unflinchingly honest in all artistic pursuits and always seems to present an authentic self from clothing to conversation to art. To me that is just so beautiful.

If you are ever up at 1:50 in the morning and looking for some entertainment, check out Twitter. Talk about a cross-section of the world's population! Informative, entertaining, inspirational, laugh out loud funny, talented... Hours of mindless entertainment.

OK, enough rambling. If you stayed with me through this whole post, I am sure it cannot have been easy and I thank you. To not only spare me from my insomnia, but also spare you more of these early morning ramblings, please leave a comment detailing your sleep remedies. Many thanks! and Sweet Dreams <3


  1. My dearest
    Chamomile tea or tea with skull cap in it.

    Figuring out what was on your mind that was keeping you awake and addressing it. SOmetimes that means waking up the husband telling him 2 sentences and going back to sleep

    quiet music (tranquil sounds)

    guided relaxation cd does it for me every time

    writing down everything in my head in my journal ( which is usually by my bedside)

  2. I actually bought myself a new pillow too. I never had a new pillow until I was 25 or so. They always just seemed to find me. But new pillows are the best.

    I really like your blog!

  3. i enjoyed your ramblings! so if you dont mind i'll ramble in my comment since there is so much to respond to! :P

    i am an insomniac too, at time. up til 2:30am last night on a work night..

    excited to see you 'come to' in your blog journey and getting back into photography! can't wait to see some pictures. :)

    you are lucky you got a wii fit! i'm so hesitant to join a gym, i used to work out 3x a week or more.. but havent had winter motivation..

    i think i have an artist/poet in mind for myself too. he is in a relationship and i'm not really in relationship mode so i figure i just have to wait for that.. but he DOES intrigue me.

  4. Hi,
    This artist/poet whose blog you visited is plagued with insomnia much more often than you. I've come to accept the nighttime hours as my friend and then I do eventually sleep or not and that I accept. Glad the Xmas gift helps you!

    I write, paint, or play brainy (not poking fun at you... truly is..;) word games via the internet: competitive ones, not "word search." That intrigues me and helps me wind down. If I read a book, I"ll read it all the way to the end, even if it's the dictionary!

    I do not think it odd to hold a new comforting pillow, especially when you've only had hand-me-downs. (I could make a pun about "Downs" as you know from reading my pun-laced poem Swirl-luscious.)

    Welcome to blogland, Happy New Year 2009 and hope you stop by for my latest post... and that it brings a smile-
    I Want To Hold Your Hand


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